To start, I currently weigh 276.4 lbs. I am 5 feet 10 inches tall. Until I began taking Nexium, I suffered from excruciating heartburn and esophageal spasms on a daily basis for a period longer than six months. I just quit smoking after three and a half years on the wagon. I binge drink one to three times a week. I do not eat vegetables. I eat mostly red meat and fried food. I eat a lot of candy. I eat a lot of breads and other starchy foods. My father just got diagnosed and treated for male breast cancer. From what I have read, although not in my father's case, male breast cancer has an increased probability in men who are overweight or obese, of which I am currently the latter. My father's father, when he was healthy weighed close to 400 lbs. His sister weighed nearly 300 lbs. at her heaviest. His other sister isn't skinny by any stretch of the imagination.
My mother has had to very minor bouts with skin cancer. Her father was diabetic and had his first heart attack by the age of 43. He then proceeded to suffer through three or four more before he eventually died. So genetically I am predisposed to these things. They are, literally and figuratively, in my blood and I have taken exactly zero steps up to this point in preventing their eventual occurrences. And while I seem to have the genetic predisposition for just about every bad thing that can kill me, I would like to say I at least took all steps to prevent them. If it happens later on in life it happens. I don't think I would be able to forgive myself if the only reason I had a heart attack, or skin cancer, or breast cancer, or diabetes, or lung cancer was because of a lack of vigilance over and care for myself.
The way I eat will eventually lead to diabetes and heart disease. If I stay good with the non-smoking bit, I think I have taken one healthy step toward avoiding lung cancer, so I guess that is a plus. The stomach problems seem to have subsided, although I will know for sure after March 1, 2008 when I go for an endoscopy. I rejoined the gym, which I even exercised at once since then - which is in fact a big step for me. I walked for 30 minutes at 3.5-3.8 mph, which left me sufficiently sweaty and winded and definitely got my heart going. I play volleyball every Tuesday, which is I guess a form of exercise because it has the same effects and leaves me sore the next morning. But it also makes me wonder how good I could be if I just wasn't so heavy.
So I guess this is how this blog will work. I am going to post what I ate on that day, what exercise I may or may not have done throughout the day, and just random other weight/health issues that may be going through my head. Because I have been living with weight/body image/mental issues like this since high school. I have been making excuses about them such as blaming wrestling, claiming to have a slow metabolism, and even trying to make it self-deprecatingly comical. But until now I have never actually tried to deal with the issues.
So this is today I guess. I woke up late after a night of heavy drinking...a few beers, some shots of Jagermeister, a forty of Olde English, and two chalices of Jack and ginger. So at around 12:45 pm I went to brunch with my friend Hiroko. There I ordered the Buttermilk Pancakes which was four pancakes, a few slices of banana and cantaloupe, and hash browns. Then on the side I ordered some bacon, which was not your normal 3-4 slices, but rather 6-7 crumpled pieces. I ate all the bacon, but didn't touch the hash browns. Then there was the two cups of coffee and a glass or two of water. For lunch I made pinwheels, which are basically salami and American cheese rolled up. A slice or two of salami and one slice of cheese - I had five of those, I think. Then I grabbed a panino at Bite of prosciutto, fresh mozzarella, sun-dried tomato, olive oil, and basil with a Coke. To cap the evening I went to Baskin Robins across the street and polished off two scoops of ice cream - one chocolate chip cookie dough and the other cookies and cream.
I don't know what my expectations of this blog are to be honest. Though even now, as I look back on the last 24 hours, I am slightly more than disgusted with the garbage I put in my body. The only thing that could be considered even remotely near healthy was the panino...but let's not kid ourselves into believing pork can possibly be considered healthy. And I ate it three times today. So I guess I will sign off each post with my vitals and grades reflecting my intake and output as a way to track my progression or regression. I am really going into this with no preset goals as to what I want to accomplish other than to get myself healthy. This isn't me saying I want to lose x-amount of weight because I have done that and it put me in just as unhealthy a position as my weight gain did. So to conclude, I want to get myself on a healthy path and I really just want to look good naked, haha.
Age: 22
Height: 5'10''
Weight: 276.4 lbs
Heart: 80 bpm
Intake: D
Output: D
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